Reflections 

All the times I worked sick,
Because I had to.
Firing people
Because I was told to.
Crying with those who
Were “removed of their duties”.
Trying to please everyone
At the sacrifice of myself.
When times were good
They were great.
The bad times
Outweighing the good.
Telling myself
I shouldn’t complain.
The coin they paid
Was unparalleled.
And then in a moment
It all changed.
Again and again
It changes.
People you don’t know
Making decisions on your behalf.
I know it’s not personal
But it is to me.
We pour our heart and soul
Into our day jobs
Taking it out on those we love most.
We lose ourselves
In the quest to balance
What’s asked of us
With what is right.
Through that pressure
Diamonds of relationships are built.
Relationships that outlast
The business.
It all becomes so insignificant
Once separated from the darkness
And all I can see is light.
The bitterness has fallen away.
The past is significant
Only in its path to the now.
I have found trust.
I have no leader
But myself.
And the compensation
Is priceless. 

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